Internship

I got to see my first procedure today! Well, it wasn't really a procedure...and it wasn't something I really needed to see. It was still interesting and I learned some information though. I'm glad they're adding onto my responsiblities each week. :)

Thanksgiving past

I miss those Thanksgivings when I had time to sit in front of the TV and watch the parade. I miss the traditional American turkey meal my dad and aunt use to slave over the stove to make. Most of all, I miss being able to sleep and not care about anything in the world.

At least I still got to come home.

Finals are coming up and the next two weeks do not look pretty.

Good bye, teen-hood.

I've officially join the 20 club today!

In other news, I got a perfect on my ochem midterm! :)
I didn't do as well on my NPB midterm. :/

Need to go take an online ochem quiz now. Birthdays do not mean work goes away. Haha...

Boo me

[This a totally different subject]

I hate it when I go to office hours and ask something that is answered in the textbook. I feel really stupid after I discover it in the text after office hours. It sort of goes back to what my anatomy teacher said: "There are stupid questions."

Questioning regrets

I don't really have time to blog, but I need to get this thought out of my head. I can't concentrate on studying with this regret.

I have the same ochem professor I had last year; the same ochem class I withdrew out in the winter. Midterm II is next week and last week would have been the point in the quarter when I withdrew out in the last year, week 5. My ochem professor's exams have gotten a bit tougher. So, here is my regret. Could I have hung on to another 6 weeks and gotten an A+ in ochem? Did I ruin my chance of getting that easy A? Did I really need to withdraw, since I was able to survive for 6 weeks until I actually got the treatment? I don't think I could have because my MG was taking over. I seriously couldn't concentrate on studying then. If I know this, then why am I still beating myself over doing something in the past I can't undo? Isn't it enough that I came back to Davis and I'm getting my life on track? Haven't I learned that regrets are never a good way of going through life? I think I'll beat my self up if I get anything less than an A in ochem and physiology this quarter. Maybe I could have channeled my focus on my class a little more last year, but I'll never know now. The only thing I can do is focus on what's important now, and that's studying like mad for the upcoming midterms.

Paronoid

I don't know! I don't know! I didn't do anything, but it might of seemed like I did do something..which might screw me over. I feel screwed! but how can I be when I didn't do anything! She always finds a way though.....

[If I remember, I'll explain later. Right now, I just feel paranoid]

Damn it! I was suppose to study after I got back from Sac today, but I went out to eat with my parents instead. Then, I came back and moved around funiture for no reason. Now, the room feels weird and I'm tired. Second round of midterms are coming up. This week is going to suck. On the plus side, Tuesday is a holiday.

Ughhh...why am I still sick?!!!!!!!

major procrastination

...to me! Procrastination in my terms! Some of you might be saying "Impossible! Kim does not procrastinate!" But not writing a paper in a week in advance is procrastination to me! Writing this blog is procrastination! Anyways, I woke up at 2:30 today to write a synthesis draft which is due on Tuesday. After wasting 4 hours of typing the whole thing, I realized that I wasn't synthesising but instead writing a research paper (which is the next assignment). So, tonight or tomorrow morning (depending how late I get back or how tired I am today) I need to rewrite my 1200 word essay. Gahhhhrrr, I want this cough to go away but that doesn't seem to be happening anytime soon considering that I'm going to be sleeping less than 5 hours a night for 3 days in a row. Lack of sleep isn't helping me academically either, as you can see, but how else am I going to get all this hw done?!

please, no.

My limbs have been feeling weak and heavy on and off for the past week or so. I know limb weakness is a symptom for MG, which scares me. I also noticed that my difficulty breathing has started up again. It's really subtle though, so I don't know if it's my MG acting up again. It can be anything. I mean, I haven't been sleeping that well, it's that part of the month, and I have a cold. I also notice that I have an awful migraine and small fever everytime my limbs get weighted. It's been six months since my Ritumab treatment, so maybe the medication is wearing off. Of course I don't want this to be my MG. *sigh* Life has been going so great. Please, don't be the MG.

If this continues through after my second round of midterms, I'll email my neurologist.