I've said before that I'm a worry-wart. As the registration date for a community college draws near, I worry that I won't be able to carry out my academic plan. I worry that I won't be able to register for courses, which in my head want to be set in stone. Sure, I can try to add the class on the first day or I can go with one of my other two plans involving school. However, I really want to make my first choice work. It's already been emotionally painful for me dropping out in middle of last quarter. Getting it straightened out is my next big headache. I'm old enough to know that plans don't always work out. This concept is hard for me to accept though. I am a perfectionist. I want the best and the best has a higher chance of happening when I'm in control. Applying to another school or readmitting into Davis means I'm at the bottom of the barrel again. This probably means none of my plans will be carried out smoothly.
People tell me that life isn't all about school. That I should slow down and enjoy life. It's true, I should. I guess this break is a chance for me to learn how to function outside of studying and lectures. So much of my life has been devoted to education though, so I still worry.
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