I'm so tired...so tired.....


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AHHHHHH!!!! i feel like crap all day and suddenly, I feel fine. I hate this! Hopefully, I get an answer on Wednesday...hopefully

Quotes of the Day

(J-- teaching me how to make STRONG coffee)
J--: "You fill 'er up and grind it until it's like..."
Me: "..powder?"
J--: "Yeah! Until you can snort it!"
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H--: "I tell my bird 'go poopy now' before I pick her up."
D--: "And does she?"
H--: "Yeah. All my birds are potty trained"
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Y--: "You know it's trouble when the kids see daddy drinking at 9am"
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S--: "I think my ochem TA thinks I'm retarded. The first day of lab, I lite my hand on fire twice."
K: "It's ok, my group lite the table on fire."
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[Giant mosquito in DL]
*S-- trying to close the window*
Me: "wait! wait! "*try to shoo mosquito out*
*Mosquito tries to attack me*
*A-- comes into the rescue and smooshes it in his binder*
*opens binder*
Everybody: "ewwwww..."
*A-- flings dead mosquito off the paper*
N--:" Right behind my chair. Thanks."
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This isn't from today, but it's memorable
[in ochem lab]
[i was doing a chromic acid test--flame turned green]
Girl across from my lab bench: "she so had green."
Me: "what? did you say 'she's so hungry'?"
Girl: LOL! "No! I said 'she so HAD GREEN'" LOL!
Me: "oh...yeah. I mishear people a lot. that'd be weird if you just go up to someone and be like 'hey! you're burning copper! you must be hungry!'"

A College Meal

I ate a bag of Sunchips, yogurt and a Snickers bar for dinner today because I was stuck in school until 7:30 and I didn't feel like making anything when I got back home. Yay for vending machines and the yogurt I bought from Costco! This a lot better than the night I stayed in the library until 11pm last quarter and I all I ate was a granola bar. It's not weird that I've never bought anything from the food courts on campus yet, right?

Today, the guy who sat next to me in ochem had a strong ramen odor.

Droopy Driving

I'm so proud of myself. I drove to SF and back to Davis alone for the first time this MLK Jr weekend. My ocular MG tends to act up after driving for long rides, so I've never tried to go the whole trip without someone else either in the passenger seat or my dad driving in front of me. On the way to SF my vision got sort of blurry for a few minutes. So, I was sort of glad there was traffic both times I drove so I could rest a bit. Now I can say that I'm not that big of loser and drove myself home!!! :)

Gahh, I'm glad I made it back alive but I'm exhausted.

Best day yet in the ICU

I switched my internship from Sunday to Thursday. Yesterday showed that switch was the right move because I got to see an actual procedure yesterday!!!! Dressing of a deep wound for suction. The wound specialist used pressure from saline bullets to wash out some of the clotted blood, measured the depth, length and width of the hole using a q-tip (it was around 5.3cmx4.7cmx5cm), put in silver as local disinfectant, and stuffed in a lot of foam (just regular sterile foam!) and hooked the patient up to the suction machine. I got to hold the skin in place!!!! Not to mention one of the nurses pointed out the pharmacist! Problem is I don't know how to approach her because she's so busy.

Health vs Time

I received my second treatment of Rituxin on the 12/24 and 1/5, so I had to go back to SF right after classes on Monday for my second dose. As with any infusion, I was exhausted after the treatment. Rituxin doesn't carry the same post-infusion effects as IVIG, so I don't know if my tiredness this week is due to lack of sleep, stress, the treatment, or my MG. It takes about a month for Rituxin to start working, so all I can do is wait.
I don't want to end of dropping out of college again nor do I want to take it easy this quarter. Actually, I am taking it easier since I'm only enrolled in 13 units. So, what I mean is, I don't want to stop pushing myself. I know my limitations are less than people with better health and I know health should become before school.But sometimes I feel like I don't have a choice choosing school over health; if I don't do well in school now, my health won't have a good outcome later on (ie, not a good job=no money to pay for treatments).
My health is fighting against time. Once I hit 24, I'll no longer be covered by my father's health insurance. So what do I do? Do I take it slow and take better care of myself now? Or do I work my butt off, risk my health, and know that I'll be more likely to get a better outcome? I think the answer is obvious, but I have a hard time accepting it.

I hate how this post/these feelings are like how I felt last year in March/April. I guess I'll never be able to fully overcome this obstacle.

HP hating on Canon?!

My friends got me a sleek, new Canon SD790 ID for my birthday, which I received yesterday. I love the gift, but I'm really annoyed with it right now. It won't let me upload pictures because the "driver can't install." I spent over 3 hours installing and uninstalling the programs, searching for answers from both HP and Canon, and googling potential problems and solutions. I was so excited about uploading this morning! Argh, why does the new year have to start out this way?!