did i say this quarter wasn't going to be pretty. this quarter seriously isn't going to be pretty. i'm going to need to study like a mad women. i joke about becoming the crazy cat lady. well, my cats this quarter are my textbooks and notes. at least all my professors are awesome lecturers.

Spring Quarter

My second spring quarter at Davis starts today! 4 science class, 3 of them have labs...this definately isn't going to be fun.

I suck

Tentative List on what I need to do over spring break:
-visit nurses at UCSF's PICU
Total fail. I always feel like I should visit and I want to visit, but when the time comes I decide not to because I'm afraid I'll bother them. I wish I had some of the nurses' emails so I could keep in touch that way. I have to, have to, have to visit at least once before UCSF kicks me out of peds.
X volunteer at LHH (2/27)
Got to watch "Taken" with F4. I don't know why I thought I was going to work with G4 today. I think it's because I've worked with so many units now that I get mixed up with them.
-research nursing
This doesn't really deserve a check because I've only looked up USF and Samuel Merritt.
-research PA
I sort of half assed it because I realized that PA might not be the best career choice for me. I mean, if I spend 1-3 yrs getting a degree in nursing, work 1-2 yrs as an RN, and spend 3 more years training to become a PA, I might as well just go to med school. So, I'm still at the point where I have no clue wth I'm doing with my life. I think I'm still stuck in pharmacy. Nursing is good too...so maybe those 2? I don't know. I just want a fulfilling job in the healthfield and enough financial support to produce my art. (*sigh* art...how I miss art :( )
-find a PA to shadow
The above reason is why I decided to not look.
X buy plane tickets to LA for cousin's wedding
will be in LA 6/19-6/21! woot!
-write cover letter for research position
The position I wanted to apply for is probably filled. So, I'll spend Spring quarter looking for something...maybe.
X update resume
-review ochem
I'll start on this tomorrow
-watch coraline
WHY?! WHY?! I might end up watching it alone tomorrow because I want to watch it that badly.
-buy birthday presents
rofl... well, i bought Theresa's gift with Katrina and Bonny but that was last minute shopping

I been thinking a lot lately. I think...I've been lying to myself for the past 3 years. I think....I'm not prepharmacy anymore. Wait! I take that back! I don't know yet! Gah, I'm trying to clear up if I'm just holding on because I've been trying to dedicate myself to this career path for so long, or if I really can't let go because I want to be a pharmacist. Pharmacist. pharmacyyy...the word, the title...the occupation never really excited me. maybe fake excitement. Argh..I don't have time to think. I need to sleep and wake up early to write my cover letter.

i'm tired. i get more than enough sleep, but i'm tired. tired...TIREDDDDDDDDD....

damn it, i seriously need to study physics.

"Depression on the Daily Basis"

...*sigh*

crap! daylightsavings is this sunday!!!! i don't want to lose an hour! i'm so behind on everything!

"Ugly Grief Flowers"

What did I learn from my internship today?

1. Why it's more convenient to administer blood to a patient during dialysis.
2. You can't turn off the coffee maker after you pour water into it (I poured water into it but then I realized the liquid coming out was clear. I turned off the machine and tried to take the filter thing so I could in more grounded coffee beans, but then water ended up showering all over the counter.)
3. We have a PA on the unit! I thought she was the doctor all the nurses bitch about.
4. A part of the skull can be preserved in the abdominal region (I felt it!!!)
5. Most importantly, the unit has fake flowers that are called "grief flowers." Basically, they put out the pot of fake, white dandelions when a patient is about to pass away or has passed away. It's a message to all the staff to be serious and not to make nonsense and crack up about...the stuff they crack up about.

Inspection people were swarming the hospital today. I'm so glad one of them decided not to ask me anything after they discovered that I'm just a volunteer.

Spring Break Plans

Finals are rapidly approaching. Funny how almost all quarters seem to drag out but the last weeks away come and go so abruptly. I'm sure spring break will be over in a flash too.

Tentive List on what I need to do over spring break:
-visit nurses at UCSF's PICU
-volunteer at LHH (2/27)
-research nursing
-research PA
-find a PA to shadow
-buy plane tickets to LA for cousin's wedding
-write cover letter for research position (gaH, i really want do clinical research b/c i've concluded that i really hate labwork)
-update resume
-review ochem
-watch coraline
-buy birthday presents

*sigh* i feel like i screw up ever single quarter.